What about me this semester suprised me and why By: Ivan Allen

Blog #7

By: Ivan Allen

                There have been many things that surprised me about myself this semester. First off I have surprised myself with my frustration management coming into this semester compared to where it is now.  For example when I came here I use to blow up on a kid named will all the time while now I rarely ever blow up upon anyone.

I also surprised myself with how much my tone changed unwillingly and what it is now compared to when I first came here. I would sometimes unknowingly raise and lower my tone while in a conversation with someone while now my tone is more of my choosing not what it used to be

I’ve also surprised myself with how much my patience in general has improved. While my patience would last me a couple days at the start of the semester it is small compared to the weeks I can last before I blow up.

 I have surprised myself in how much I have improved in all aspects of socialization this semester. Another thing is what I do when I’m not giving something my full attention like a couple mistakes in my journals. For example I wasn’t paying attention to what I was writing in my journals and I wrote stuff that was completely wrong and messed up about one of my partners here at S.O.A.R and made our friendship fall apart.

Another thing surprising to me is how much I am attached to things like books and bottling up my emotions until I explode at someone for even the smallest thing like who is sitting where. For example if I don’t read a book for 15 minutes every couple hours my patience starts to become a lot more questionable than before.

 Another thing that’s surprised me about myself is how much I jump into conversations that don’t even involve me and I sometimes don’t even know what I’m talking about. An example of this is when I find a conversation that I feel like adding my two cents and I think of what I would typically say it goes out of my mouth instead of staying in my mind

Finally the last big thing that surprised me about myself this semester would be the realization of how much I’ve still got to learn to even consider becoming a performing adult in life. For example I was doing well in all forms of things you need to do to succeed and I completely spaced and found out that I left a lot of the stuff I needed to make dinner was left back at base which I have never done before since my usual issues usually are in places like social awareness and food making/organization has been one of my strengths for years now.